My roommate and I were unpacking a few boxes last night and the entire time, she was just listening to me ramble and rant about my problems. Not criticizing or judging, just listening. I know she was listening because she would periodically ask me a question about what I was talking about. Eventually I had worked everything out in my head and I realize now, that I am not depressed. I have nothing to be depressed about. I have a good paying job with a company that I enjoy working for, I’m living on my own; not much in the way of bills, and I the only person in my office who currently knows how to use the program that will, within the next year, take over the drafting industry. I’m single, and free, with people that care about me. I’ve got it pretty good.
So what if I’m having problems with my teeth, or if I don’t have a car yet, or even my license. The first step to building self esteem is taking care of yourself. I’m going to start eating healthier, less sugary foods, more salad. I’m going to stop complaining about having to walk to work every morning, its good exercise and I’m going to stop skipping meals. If I want to build confidence, I have to start taking care of myself.
So least to say, last night was a game changer.
I also read something on StumbleUpon. It was a list of 50 questions you can ask yourself to improve your quality of life. I think I’ll start throwing those in random posts for people to see.
Also, last night, on our way home from the grocery store, my roommate pointed out that I’m always asking her for ideas on ways to help other people and how I always say in order to help others you have to be able to help yourself. She asked me what I meant by that; I never really thought about it until that moment. It made me realize what I want out of life. If I smile at one person, and that person smiles at another person and so on and so forth, if I brighten one persons day each day, everything is worth it. If one person reads my poetry and it sparks an idea, an emotion, a feeling deeply seeded in their heart, then my writing was worth it.
Let’s face it. The world is in a pretty sucky state right now. If I can do something in my life to make even one persons life a little bit better, then my life was worth it.
So, the first one, ask yourself this:
17. Do you live for others or yourself?