My Mental Illness


ADHD-PI stands for Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder – Predominantly Inattentive (this is what is commonly referred to as ADD). ADHD-HI stands for Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder – Predominantly Hyperactive/Impulsive. This is what is commonly referred to as ADHD. When I was 12 I was diagnosed with ADHD-C, which is Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder – Combination Type. It takes the best parts of ADHD-PI and ADHD-HI and packs them into one box.

I’ve been on Adderall XR 30mg for about 6 years now and it still does it’s job for the most part. Some days it works better than others but I’m fairly certain that has a lot to do with my motivations through the day. The only problem it causes me is some sleeping problems periodically.

Social Phobia and Panic Disorder

Last year I was diagnosed with Social Phobia and Panic Disorder. My doctor prescribed Citalopram 20mg which worked well for about 8 months. Then, things started to get a little rough with my then girlfriend. We were working through things when my father committed suicide. Then, a few weeks after that, we decided it would be best to break up. My has anxiety steadily gotten worse since then.

Until January of 2015 – when I met my sister (she’s not biologically my sister but I think of her like a sister).

Her and one of my other best friends, convinced gave me the courage and support to seek the proper help that I need. Almost a month ago my medication was switched to Venlafaxine XR 150mg. This medication works wonders for my and so far has helped me regain control of my panic attacks and of my fear of social situations. I will be going to my doctor again soon to talk about finding a therapist so that I can identify the cause of my anxiety and panic disorders, and hopefully learn to cope with them without medication at some point.

I am in the process of learning who I really am, and learning the best ways that for me to cope with anxiety and fear and once I am comfortable with who I am, once I can be independent again – that is when I will start looking for love again.

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