(19/01/2013) Embrace Anger

So much anger
held inside
Hold on tight
Enjoy the ride.
How I will end
No one knows
So line em up
And watch ’em go.
Why fight anger
When it’s your friend
When you’re alone
It’s what’s left to defend.
So just let the anger
Inside you flow
And sit back, relax
and enjoy the show.
©2013 Alex Hicks

Power of Words

Words can be tossed as you please
As words are not of stone
But accept the consequences
For every one you’ve thrown
Know that if you speak true
“Sorry” is an empty phrase
But apologies mean more to most
When preceeded by words of rage
Words spoken out of anger
Are never meant to be said
Before you let your mouth run wild
Be sure to look within your head.
©2012 Alex Hicks

Descent Into Madness

Why do I fight it?
I’m tired of conflict.
I think that it’s time I gave in.
Let anger course through me
How could I not foresee
That in battling anger, he’ll win.
Won’t let it control
My life as a whole
But to push me where I need to go.
Drive me to madness
Out of this sadness
Why keep swimming against the flow.
©2012 Alex Hicks

The Monster In Me

This is a long one. I really like this one. Not sure why, I just really like it. – Alex H.


The Monster in Me

There is a monster deep in me
He hides so we all cannot see
The pain he feels when he’s revealed
The sorrow he can’t keep concealed.
He does not have claws or a tail
But still he frightens without fail
He has no wings or eyes of black
And without horns he loses track
Of who is monster and is host
Of who he is and hates the most
The problem is he looks just like
the one he took to hide his life
before too long he starts to act
just like the host so he retracts
To tame himself so to become
The one who hates to see the sun
The one who dares not face us all
The one who fears the earthly call
I’d wish him gone but then I think
He lets himself appear in ink
Through writing and the use of words
He sees the world and hears the birds
Who am I to take that away
and who am I to say “don’t stay”
When all I am is just a shell
Just living in my little hell
So now he is that which I seek
So in my mind I take a peek
And see him there and he sees me
And then he knows he cannot flee
He says he’s weak and can’t escape
“In my own life I can’t partake”
And then he adds without remorse
“See I am not the one off course.”
I look at him and I’m unsure
Of why he wants to find a cure
For the life he hates to live
Why his own life, he wants to give
He looks at me as if to say
“You are who made me this way.”
I tell him no, I can’t project
How I had made him to expect
To live his life inside my own
Never to make his presence known
Then I have a revelation
This was not my expectation
That he is not the evil one
He is my life that’s come undone
I see he’s not the monster true
And now uncertain what to do
Why did it take so long to see
The only monster here is me…
©2012 Alex Hicks

Atheism and Spirituality

Last night I asked myself the question as an atheist, can atheists be spiritual. Social views of atheism say no. However, by the definition of Atheism and the definition of spiritual, atheists can be just that.

I meditate for 30 minutes every day. When I was telling someone about this, they brought up the fact that meditation is a spiritual practice and that I am an atheist. It made me think about the true definition of spirituality. I did a little bit of research and I stumbled on some very interesting ideas.

I strongly believe that due to the wide spread misunderstanding of the word spiritual, there are not many spiritual atheists. However, I also believe that spirituality does not directly require a religion. When I look up at the stars at night, I get a feeling of spirituality, the feeling that there is something much much greater than myself as the Universe is an amazing place with so much to see and so much to learn. I get the same feeling when looking at pictures of the deepest parts of the ocean. The feeling that there is something amazing there that we have yet to see but someday (hopefully within my lifetime) I will get to see.

It is true that meditation is widely viewed as a spiritual practice. However, the process of clearing your mind of unnecessary negative thoughts through meditation is a practice that I believe everyone should do. 30 minutes a day is all it takes, maybe less. It allows you to avoid the majority of the anger that you have built up throughout the day, and relieves stress. Meditating is when some of my best ideas occur to me.

I see spirituality as a process of centering one self and balancing mind and body. The quest to discover the deepest values and meanings by which a person lives.

I am curious to know what my followers think about this subject. I don’t want to have a religious debate, I just want to know if you agree or disagree.


I’m trying out different forms of poetry. Let me know if you can think of any forms for me to try!

Simple sense state
Anger always aims at
Designing darker distance
Never nearing knowledge
Ever enduring engagement
So silence sires solitude as
Sadness suppresses.
-©2012 Alex Hicks