A Little More About Me. And Why I’m Angry.

No, I’m not angry with my readers. I’m angry with my family, and with some of my local friends. And here’s why:

Recently I posted something explaining that someone important in my life had been arrested and is being charged with something that I find to be the most despicable of crimes.

Now, my readers may not know this, but I find children to be the most beautiful thing in this world. They are the essence of innocence and deserve as much respect and protection as our elders do, if not more. They are the future and when we are dead and gone, they will run the world and they deserve to be treated as such. Not to be spoiled, but to be taught respect and discipline.

Anyway, the person who I refer to is my father. The crime he’s being charged with? Possession of child pornography. If what the police are saying is true, he has soiled the most innocent and protected thing on the planet, and that is disgraceful. He insists that he is innocent (of course he does, who would admit guilt?) But I have my doubts. Some things about him have come to light about him since the arrest and as it stands now, whether or not he’s innocent or guilty, it is doubtful that he will ever regain my trust.

As for some of my friends, I’m angry with them for a couple reasons. There are 2 people I talked to for advice on the situation who suggested that I turn to god. It made me ask myself a question:

  1. Would my reaction be any different if I was not an atheist? If I believed in one or more gods?

And the answers to me are fairly simple. 1. No, my reaction would be no different. The man I have been closest with my whole life has betrayed my trust in the worst possible way. Neither gods nor men could change that. I’ve been told to have faith in my father (my birth father…not a pastor) but faith doesn’t win wars, soldiers do.

The world is a dark place, and right now times appear to be the darkest. I remind myself every day that the lights are brightest when seen from the dark, but always further away. I am trying my best to stay one step ahead of the dark, but it is not an easy thing to do.

On a brighter note, I’ve got another update planned for later today to talk about poems and writing, and the possibility of getting myself published. So if you have any suggestions for my top works, let me know.


Alex Hicks

Quote #8

“I see a clock, but I cannot envision the clockmaker. The human mind is unable to conceive of the four dimensions, so how can it conceive of a God, before whom a thousand years and a thousand dimensions are as one?”
-From Cosmic religion: with other opinions and aphorisms (1931), Albert Einstein, pub. Covici-Friede. Quoted in The Expanded Quotable Einstein, Princeton University Press; 2nd edition (May 30, 2000); Page 208, ISBN 0691070210

Atheism and Spirituality

Last night I asked myself the question as an atheist, can atheists be spiritual. Social views of atheism say no. However, by the definition of Atheism and the definition of spiritual, atheists can be just that.

I meditate for 30 minutes every day. When I was telling someone about this, they brought up the fact that meditation is a spiritual practice and that I am an atheist. It made me think about the true definition of spirituality. I did a little bit of research and I stumbled on some very interesting ideas.

I strongly believe that due to the wide spread misunderstanding of the word spiritual, there are not many spiritual atheists. However, I also believe that spirituality does not directly require a religion. When I look up at the stars at night, I get a feeling of spirituality, the feeling that there is something much much greater than myself as the Universe is an amazing place with so much to see and so much to learn. I get the same feeling when looking at pictures of the deepest parts of the ocean. The feeling that there is something amazing there that we have yet to see but someday (hopefully within my lifetime) I will get to see.

It is true that meditation is widely viewed as a spiritual practice. However, the process of clearing your mind of unnecessary negative thoughts through meditation is a practice that I believe everyone should do. 30 minutes a day is all it takes, maybe less. It allows you to avoid the majority of the anger that you have built up throughout the day, and relieves stress. Meditating is when some of my best ideas occur to me.

I see spirituality as a process of centering one self and balancing mind and body. The quest to discover the deepest values and meanings by which a person lives.

I am curious to know what my followers think about this subject. I don’t want to have a religious debate, I just want to know if you agree or disagree.