Where does the sunshine end and the dark of night begin?
When does the joy inside oneself give way to the dark within?
Where does the path of love give leave and the world falls away?
Where sunshine ends and night begins to engulf the light of day.
I dance the only dance I know, the one that stems the pain;
and step by step I move and sway, and hope it stops the rain.
But at every move and every turn the thunder sounds a drum
and reminds me of the life I live and that I cannot run.
Once upon a time I stepped to a rhythm of my own.
To a harmony and melody that I one time had grown;
and to that beat I danced and danced and quelled the little fears
that grew and grew and danced with me and with them grew my tears.
Until one day it hit me like the calm before the storm,
that on my mind the little fears had beaten, grabbed and torn.
Until the thoughts to which I stepped had began to bleed
and the little thoughts – anxieties – on them began to feed
My dance began to lose its fire, it’s passion, warmth, and zeal;
And the fears that ripped ferociously, began to feel so real
No longer could I dance and sway, to hide all that I felt,
with all my calm collected thoughts, my walls began to melt.
The rain it burned like acid and the thunder shook my core,
and although I tried to carry on, I knew that I could dance no more.
Beneath the weight of my own thoughts, I dropped down to my knees
and let the tears fall from my eyes as the ground began to freeze.
But just when I had given up, I saw a glimmer through the haze
A little spark, a light of hope, from my knees I began to raise
and the more I looked upon the light, the bigger it would grow
but the more I moved towards it, the further it would go.
When I stopped it did the same, but brighter still it grew
as it did I felt more and more that I would make it through.
Slowly I began to dance, to step and sway once more
despite the wind and driving rain, I’d never felt like this before.
Now I know that although strong, there is more here than the rain,
and as the light grows brighter I know that I can do the same
Although the storm has raged so long and left parts of me scarred
No matter how much it may try, it will not scar my heart.
©2015 Alex Hicks
beautiful
Serene
Show me someone standing strong
Strained against the shame and sorrow
not slighted by the silent song.
Show me someone stronger still
Steadiness and iron will
A stormless serene symbol
of the smashed and shattered souls
©2015 Alex Hicks
CONFIDENCE
Concede your ignorance
On broken words no longer fall
Not looking back at choices made
For the future is unknown
If failure is your Achilles heel
Do not give it power
Everyone must fail sometimes
Never let your fear
Condemn your life for
Everyone has the power to choose.
The Dark
I act as though I’ve left the dark
Like I’ve passed through it
And I’ll never see it again
But thats not true
I see it every day.
Somedays,
It’s closer than others
Somedays,
I’m right back in it again
It surrounds me.
But the difference is
I’ve learned to accept help
When I need it
I don’t think I could face the dark
Not again.
Not alone.
But I don’t need to
I don’t have to face the dark alone
I may not have a lot of friends
But what few I have
Mean the world to me.
And I would do anything for them
Just as they
Would do anything for me.
©2013 Alex Hicks
HANGING ON
Such beautiful poetry inspired by such a small image.
Promise
I’m the kind of person who is happiest
When making other people happy.
If I make one person laugh every day
Then it will have been a good day for me.
This poses a small problem for me
When someone tells me
That they’ve had a hard life
I don’t know what to say because
Nothing I could say would make their situation
Any better.
So I just sit there in silence
Watching
Waiting
I don’t know what I’m waiting for.
Maybe I’m waiting for them to get mad at me
for not saying anything
Maybe I’m waiting for the tears they’ll inevitably cry
Or maybe I’m waiting for the moment to insert a joke
Or anything that I think will make them smile
But that moment rarely comes
There’s a time and place for everything
But there rarely seems to be a time and place for me
In the moment,
I’ll sit in silence watching your face
For signs of what you’ll do next.
Whether it be tears of sadness or rage
Or a scream
But I don’t speak
Because you’ve heard the lies before
“Everything will be fine”
“It will all work out in the end”
“I’ll always be here for you”
I won’t speak those lies
Because everything won’t be fine
It may not work out in the end
I may not always be here for you
But I’m here now.
That’s a promise I can keep.
I’ll be the ears to hear that scream
The shoulder to cry on
The foundation to hold you up
But I can’t promise to always be there for you
Because I don’t know if I can keep that promise.
©2013 Alex Hicks
Dark Sleep (Part 1)
This one’s a two part poem ladies and gents. Part 2 will be up later, and it goes to some really dark places.
Tell her stories in the night
Until the dawns morning light
Of heroes saving the day
Maybe then she’ll stay
But it’s realy not likely
That she’ll want to love you nightly
I know it may sound funny
But she only wants your money
She dances on the street curb
Just outside the suburb
In the morning she leaves
Another man for her to please
She’s not but corner whore
And yet still you want her more
She begs you and calls you sir
Each night that you’re here with her
She sells her body for sex
and you think that you know best
By wanting her to love you
with everything that you do
But you know that there’s no chance
She only knows one dance
She’s not the cheating kind
because she will not be tied
A common downtown street whore
And you you still want more
To share more than just your bed
You wish for you to be wed
She’s made that clear a hundred-fold
You can’t ask again, you’ve been told
And now you know that there’s no chance
That she will ever dance that dance
©Alex Hicks 2013
Any Other Way
Of course it’s a girl
That’s always the cause
My actions and judgement
They’re all going wrong
Synapses firing
Against my own will
Some say it’s annoying
And it is but still
The things that I’m feeling
I want them to stay
I wouldn’t have it
Any other way
The risks that I’m taking
The mountains I’ll climb
Some say I’m in danger
But I say I’m fine
They say that I’ve changed
That I’m not the same as I was
They say it’s a bad thing
But it can’t be because
The things that I’m feeling
I want them to stay
I wouldn’t have it
Any other way
This is what I want
What I’ve been searching for
I’ve found something new here
That I’ve not had before
That feeling of emptyness
Is no longer with me
So yes I have changed
And the fact’s simply
The things that I’m feeling
I want them to stay
and I wouldn’t have it
Any other way.
©2013 Alex Hicks
Why Are We Here?
This late at night
The best inspiration comes
The best ideas
The best thoughts
All flow from within
The earths own shadow
When the sun drops
From the horizon
The moon can run its course
Spreading inspiration
Determination
Exaggeration
And idea creation
In the face of the dawn
The results of night are clear
That this world that we live in
This world we created
Is why we are here.
©2013 Alex Hicks
End of The Rainbow
Yeah
I’ve seen the end of a rainbow
And let me tell you something
There is no pot of gold
No leprechaun laughing
And telling jokes
But what is there
Is a message.
That everything ends.
Everything in life has a beginning
And an end.
Everything ends.
Friends leave…
Trees fall…
Rain stops…
Rivers run dry…
Ice Melts…
…Stars die.
None of which we can stop.
The inevitabilities in life
Should make you to be a better person
Just don’t let your entire life be changed
By the message at the end of the rainbow.
©2013 Alex Hicks
Into Dawn 