Concede your ignorance
On broken words no longer fall
Not looking back at choices made
For the future is unknown
If failure is your Achilles heel
Do not give it power
Everyone must fail sometimes
Never let your fear
Condemn your life for
Everyone has the power to choose.
life
Broken Silence – A Duet
Another poem written by myself and Shruti of A Shade of Pen. She’s a wonderful poet and I always have so much fun writing with her. I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it. Go follow her.
It’s been forever,
Since I heard
The sound that the world calls
The voice of your heart
The sound of a thousand memories
I thought lost, but now are found
Once more we sing in unison
Two voices of the song
No words can match
The beauty of the smile
That grazed my face
As my eyes AGAIN fell on you.
Dancing, swaying, to and fro
The words flow unrestrained
A graceful smile fitting, no?
Trading glances once again.
A hundred words between us
And still we talk in signs
Sometimes, words fail to register
The things that eyes tell
Yet a hundred words unspoken
Heard only by our minds
The words of the heart are silent
Just as the hands of time
©2014 Alex Hicks and Shruti (A Shade of Pen)
The Walls I Know So Well
So yesterday, me and my girlfriend broke up. It was on good terms and we are still “friends” but it still hurts. I thought I loved this girl, but I put too much of myself into a relationship that was only 3.5 months old. I was smothering her on top of everything she had to focus on with school and her family…I understood everything…It made sense…
But it still hurts…
I keep saying I could have fixed things
But I don’t think that I’d be able
I became far too reliant
On the feelings I’d enabled.
I expected her to care for me
So much more than what she did
After such a short relationship
I couldn’t handle what she hid
I let fall all my defenses
The walls I took so long to build
And now that I’m alone again
With loneliness I’m filled.
So now it’s time to step back
And rebuild the walls I fell
To shut out all the darkness
That I know so very well
So I will sit alone for now
And build up my hardened shell
I’ll rebuild what I let fall
The walls I know so well.
©2013 Alex Hicks
The Tragedy of Unanswered Letters – A Duet
This one was written by myself and my good friend Shruti over at A Shade of Pen. She is a wonderful poet and we had so much fun writing this one. Be sure to go over to her blog and follow her!
It’s been endless years since I wrote to you
It’s been forever since I waited for your reply
And yet, every day when the sun rises;
My eyes gleam with the hope to hear from you
And yet, every night when the moon glitters
A silent tear slowly escapes as I still wait
The tears of the lonely show life in its glory
An eternity alone, a devastating story
At the surface it may appear that we’re gone
But we’ve been silently waiting here all along
On the surface you may see what you will
But deep underneath the tears eat their fill
The heart though broken sings a song
Despite the wait, it hungrily longs
To belong to the one for whom it still beats
And yet Destiny plays foul and doesn’t permits
Two long lost lovers to unite again
As each suffers silently in unfulfilled love’s lane
To rise above passion and beauty skin deep
And transcend differences and secrets they keep
Reaching forever for one combined goal
Sticking together, two halves of a whole
A fixture of time, steadfast it remains
Love breaks down borders and releases the pain.
As love oozes and flows from the heart
The broken shards hope of a new start
Hopes swell up and dash again
The heart hopes but in vain
Although, no letters reach her ever
Yet, her heart silently whispers.. Never say never
Whispering quietly in the dark
Her words to never reach their mark
Her tears fall silently and remain unseen
Never to be noticed by loves tragic scene
A complex and twisted tragedy
Of simple unrespected majesty
With love, longing, memories and pain
She still stands strong in this lane
A little part of her breaks everyday
And today, still and silent she lays
The unfulfilled longings of love finally made her die
Her body crumbles as there is no one to cry
A tragedy, a death; yet love shines
’cause separated in life, but upon death they unite
Life eternal without pain
Brings more suffering in vain
And living life without love to hold
Does force the hand of life to fold
And tears shed over something lost
Are far from a price that’s worth the cost
For life is a game of give and take
And love requires both to make.
©2013 Alex Hicks and Shruti (A Shade of Pen)
United as One
I wrote this one with A Shade of Pen. She’s good friend and amazing poet so be sure to check out and follow her blog.
A little smile on her face
And I was knocked by the power of it
Could she be the girl of my dreams
Or was destiny playing with me?
A smile graced the corners of her mouth
And it shook me to the core
Could this be a passing fad
Or is it something more?
A million questions invaded my mind
Yet, all I felt was the throbbing heart
No star could match the brilliant shine
That I saw in the twinkling of her eyes
Her eyes, I couldn’t look away
The most vibrant of blues
I couldn’t help but stare
Pulling me into their hypnotic gaze
I fall deep in them shamelessly
I have nothing to hold on to
As I feel like I’m in a trance
That makes every part of me come alive
I never wanted to stay away
I want to get lost in the beauty of her hair
The softness of her skin
The comfort of her touch
I explore the curves of her face
Every inch a perfection in itself
If ever an angel walked on Earth
I was sure, She was the one.
Her words would chill me to the bone
Pull the ground out from under me
And when I fell
She would catch me in her loving embrace
I can fall on her to hold me
Even when I am going through stormy times
There is nothing that shall hold my heart
Like the eyes that currently drown me
The world will fall away
As the scent of carnations surrounds me
And I would float there
Lost in her gentle embrace
Together we will ride the waves
That love will conjure
The moment freezes forever
As two souls finally unite to one
©2013 Alex Hicks and A Shade of Pen
Promise
I’m the kind of person who is happiest
When making other people happy.
If I make one person laugh every day
Then it will have been a good day for me.
This poses a small problem for me
When someone tells me
That they’ve had a hard life
I don’t know what to say because
Nothing I could say would make their situation
Any better.
So I just sit there in silence
Watching
Waiting
I don’t know what I’m waiting for.
Maybe I’m waiting for them to get mad at me
for not saying anything
Maybe I’m waiting for the tears they’ll inevitably cry
Or maybe I’m waiting for the moment to insert a joke
Or anything that I think will make them smile
But that moment rarely comes
There’s a time and place for everything
But there rarely seems to be a time and place for me
In the moment,
I’ll sit in silence watching your face
For signs of what you’ll do next.
Whether it be tears of sadness or rage
Or a scream
But I don’t speak
Because you’ve heard the lies before
“Everything will be fine”
“It will all work out in the end”
“I’ll always be here for you”
I won’t speak those lies
Because everything won’t be fine
It may not work out in the end
I may not always be here for you
But I’m here now.
That’s a promise I can keep.
I’ll be the ears to hear that scream
The shoulder to cry on
The foundation to hold you up
But I can’t promise to always be there for you
Because I don’t know if I can keep that promise.
©2013 Alex Hicks
Superhero
Last year I read a poem that ended with something along the lines of:
“But no one seems to notice
When a superhero sheds a tear.”
I can’t find that poem for the life of me now so if you have it I desperately want it for my collection.
This poem is inspired by that one.
Enjoy!
She walks the streets in sunlight
And no one really knows
The side of her that’s secret
The one she never shows.
She’s the invisible girl
And she’s always there to help
Purse snatcher, bank robbers
She’s not good for their health
She’ll save your falling child
Or thwart a robbers plan
She’ll save the day and vanish
As fast as she possibly can
But when it’s time for sunrise
She’ll be normal once again
A normal lonely girl
Waiting for the day to end
She lives in her apartment
Run down and full of mice
Living off of nothing
But water and some rice
She’s the invisible girl
Living in pain and fear
Because nobody will notice
When a superhero sheds a tear.
©2013 Alex Hicks
The Broken
Like looking into a broken mirror
The reflection is still there
But it’s all in pieces
Fragmented
Broken
I’m broken
Like a shattered picure frame
The memories are there
But it looks strange
Tortured
Distorted
©2013 Alex Hicks
Dark Sleep (Part 2)
Part 2 guys and gals, this contains blood and death. You’ve been warned.
So last night you made a plan
That if you cannot have her hand
None will have her in their bed
None can have that which is dead
So you drive to her nightly corner
Wondering if anyone will mourn her
She gets in with a polite smile
Looks at you “it’s been a while”
You nod at her and smile back
eleven pm, right on track
Back to your place and through the door
Soon enough you’ll love her no more
She strips her clothes and on the bed
On your pillow she rests her head
You get in and lie with her
You know now this is for sure
You pretend to sleep and she gets up
In the bathroom grabs a cup
In the mirror there you stand
Right behind her, knife in hand
She tries to scream but you’re too fast
and her next breath will be her last
The knife sinks in and tears are shed
She doesn’t know why you want her dead
You lean in and whisper clear
I just wanted you my dear
You told me there was never a chance
You made up your mind without a glance
Her body drops and in something drops
A small and square red velvet box
You pick it up and look inside
And suddenly it’s you who’se died
Inside the box there sat a ring
A simple small engagement ring
And folded small a little note
And within it she had wrote:
“I’m giving this small ring to you
and here’s what I want you to do:
take me to dinner, someplace fine
And order us a bottle of wine;
Put the ring there in my glass
and when I drink, on one knee ask
If I will be thy wedded wife
From now until the end of life.
I’ll say yes, and then for sure
I will be a whore no more
I will be your beautiful bride
And forever we’ll be filled with pride.”
You take the knife, eyes filled with tears
You’ve realized your biggest fear
It’s not being alone as it were
It’s living your life without her
Your steady the knife at your own heart
And look at her as all goes dark
And plunge the knife into your chest
And finally you both may rest
A story told through simple rhyme
Cannot condone a passion crime
So the old phrase remains strong and tall
Better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.
©2013 Alex Hicks
Any Other Way
Of course it’s a girl
That’s always the cause
My actions and judgement
They’re all going wrong
Synapses firing
Against my own will
Some say it’s annoying
And it is but still
The things that I’m feeling
I want them to stay
I wouldn’t have it
Any other way
The risks that I’m taking
The mountains I’ll climb
Some say I’m in danger
But I say I’m fine
They say that I’ve changed
That I’m not the same as I was
They say it’s a bad thing
But it can’t be because
The things that I’m feeling
I want them to stay
I wouldn’t have it
Any other way
This is what I want
What I’ve been searching for
I’ve found something new here
That I’ve not had before
That feeling of emptyness
Is no longer with me
So yes I have changed
And the fact’s simply
The things that I’m feeling
I want them to stay
and I wouldn’t have it
Any other way.
©2013 Alex Hicks
Into Dawn 